It happened I think in October what happened was I had a crush and told my friend about it. Then a couple days later she got one of her friends to write me a nasty letter telling me I was a pathetic little puppy that needed to go piss on a tree and I felt so worthless when I read that letter. And they're were times when she was giving me crap, and I tried to stand up to her, but she kept calling me immature. I know what I did was wrong and I learned my lesson, but that was just hurtful. I'm a sesitive person and I take everything people say about me to heart.
Months later I began to think that I was worthless and that if I had a prupose is was only to cause people misery and sorrow. And because of that I wanted to commit suicide, because I thought that if I was gone everyone would be happy. I felt no one would miss me. She had no idea that what she called me had a major effect one how I thought. I even thought that if I kept thinking about it I would go insane. Thursday I wanted to send myself to the insane asylum. I'm not thinking about commiting suicide or going tothe insane asylum anymore, but it still causes me anguish. Can anyone please help?

Given the situation as you've explained it...what does the actual CRUSH think of you? Also, your friend is no such thing, if that happened.

I don't think you did ANYTHING wrong there honey. You just told a "friend" a secret, and she turned out to be a horrible monster. Sometimes people are awful, and I understand it hurts, but you've just gotta move on past it. Just keep living your life, and forget these awful girls

I don't know why you think what you did was wrong, if anything, it was that friend of yours who should be feeling crappy, because of what she dished out on you. People like that are not worth feeling anguish over. You shouldn't let *anyone* lower your sense of self-worth, much less someone like that. Your so-called friend is the pathetic one, not you!

Dude, the worst thing to do now is to blame yourself (always blame others, remember this...*evil laughter*..alright -.- no more lame joking).
You care for your friend so much that you're blaming yourself for her mistake. And she is selfish for letting you take the blame. That's it. You're not in the wrong. You just have to learn to let go. I've had such an experience before =p Cared for a friend so much that I put up with his bloody atittude and started blaming myself for his mistakes. At the end of the day, I finally realised that I'm better than that =p I don't stop caring for my friend, but I don't blame myself for whatever crap that'd happened anymore =]

Okay, so you developed a crush on a guy and you told your 'friend' and she flipped out? You did nothing wrong, don't think that you did. If your 'friend' was going to act like that, I'm sure that you wouldn't have told her right? But you have to remember, telling someone something like that is always a great way to tell if they are really your friend or not. Yes I know, some things you can't talk to friends about, but there are the good things. If you and this mystery man do get together, rub it in her face. lol. Yeah, okay, don't do that. Just ignore her for a while and if she comes back to you, remind her about all the crap that she put you through and if she apologizes, maybe take her back as a friend, just watch over her.. sorta. I'm still having trouble trusting one of my friends with somethings.

It doesn't even sound like you did anything wrong. Is there more to the story? You trusted your friend with a secret and she turned out to be a HORRIBLE friend. Don't blame yourself for what happened, your friend is the one who's wrong.

How you could ever feel you had any fault in this is incredible, you did nothing wrong as far as I can see. However I can understand feeling a deep hurt when someone you trust betrays you. But do remember anyone who makes you feel less is wrong. Please feel free to send me a message if you'd like to talk more about feeling suicidal and/or how you feel like going to an insane asylum. I know a lot about those things, and I'd like to give you support if you need it. But never feel you are worthless because of someone telling you that you are. ALWAYS remember that suicide is NOT the answer, and as worthless as you feel at the time, you ARE worth something. Definitely start trying to find things that make you feel confident, things you enjoy a lot, and find new people who respect you. Good luck towards feeling happier. :huggle:

Mokuren, you didn't do anything wrong, hon.

She's just probably jealous or probably your friend liked your crush as well.
Happens alot.

Don't you ever think that you're at fault in this situation as all you did was tell your friend about a crush. Made a similar mistake myself when I was about your age or younger and everyone laughed at me. Felt worthless too, but it passed as i needed to concentrate on other things like studies and such.

Besides, you have something she doesn't. You have us and we're always here for you :huggle:

Mokuren, do not be thinking such thoughts as that.
She is not your "friend" if she flipped, never mind acting in such a way.
Sounds nasty i know, but she is NOT a friend.
Just leave her be.