Thank you for those who replied to "A Love That Could Never Be", it really means lot!!!! Ok…this poem relates to the feelings of Miss Tifa Lockhart, and it is again a long one by me! Please tell me what you think! ^_^
Oh, and btw,
Her=Aerith, You=Cloud, I=Tifa.



Losing Myself

Don’t look at me
Please don’t call my name
I can’t hear you now
It’s all the same

A million things
Floating through my head
It’s all a blur
I’m becoming dead

Can’t feel the pain
Bodies numb
No more emotions
I’m all dried up

Losing myself
Back in my hole
No coming out
I’ve lost control

Don’t bother with me
Nothing you can do
Just battling myself
Who’s gonna lose?
I am but ONE person

I am but one person in this world of
billions
But I am the one person who loves you
unconditionally
That loves you for your faults as well as
your qualities
My love for you goes deeper than the
surface of my heart
Goes well past the inner, and rests finally
in my soul
The essence of which I am
My soul longs to bond with yours but you
are pulling away, reaching for her,

I know…you’ve done it before
I’m not going to chase you this time
Not going to pine for you, waiting for you
I can’t go through that again
I can’t be hurt like that again
It took a long time for me to realize that I
love you
But when its not reciprocated I feel like a
fool for wanting you
What am I supposed to do with these
uncontrollable feelings I have for you?
I can’t suppress them they are too strong
Can’t give them to someone else because
it doesn’t feel the same
Do I suffer in silence and pretend that I
don’t hurt because of you?
Do I just forget you ever existed and pray
that I get over you?
Tell me what I am supposed to do
because I truly do not know.

I am but one person in this world of
billions
I can only do what I know best
Let you roam free and wait until you
return to me again
And I know you won’t,
Because I know your heart is already occupied,
And I doubt I’m more important that her,
But if you return
I no longer get excited for your calls
In fact I’ve become quite angered by
them
It doesn’t feel the same because I know
you are only going to hurt me again
To be honest I hate you sometimes
It sounds harsh but that’s how I feel
That’s how you make me feel
Filled with hate and anger and I shouldn’t
be
Not over you, not over any guy
Who loves her totally.

But I do, and despite it all I have nothing
but love for you
you amaze me with your aspirations to do
great things
You haven’t given her up easily, and you still don’t,
But what about me?
I support you whole-heartedly while
you give half of the same inspiration
I know you mean well but show me,
Show me I can be the person you will die for,
Just as you do to her, though I know you can’t and you won’t,
Talk is cheap and you’ve been talking for
years now
And I haven’t seen a thing
change

I am but one person in this world of
billions
The one person who will love you
unconditionally
But mistreating me is not the way to win
me
It’s only digging you deeper into a whole
And I’m trying to claw my way out of the
one I’m in
We can’t move forward until we reconcile
the past
This is my peace
These words written here are my final
plea
If it goes unanswered
Then maybe we weren’t meant to be
Is it her or me?
I am but one person in this world of
billions
Who will it be? Her or me?

Her.

I’m losing myself.

Hey even though it's long it's good. Another one of the beatiful peoms by Cynel! I love it. It really does express the thoughts and feelings of Tifa, and her feelings about Cloud and Aerith's relationship. You get a free cookie! *hands you a cookie* ^^

Wow! I really liked your poem..it's deep. :D