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The Lifestream Event is a complex and tangled web woven into the story of Final Fantasy VII. Many people have the misconception that Cloud finds his “true self” and “rediscovers his love for Tifa” in the Lifestream event, which is far from what actually happens. There are only two things within the Lifestream Event that Cloud rediscovers, which are his true role in the Nibelheim incident and the fact that he was never in SOLDIER. During the rest of the event, it is actually Cloud who is revealing things to Tifa.
It must be remembered that the whole reason Cloud becomes confused over his identity in the first place is that Sephiroth tells Cloud in the Northern Crater that he is one of Hojo’s failed experiments, and that Hojo confirms this to Cloud at the Reunion. Sephiroth informs Cloud that he didn’t grow up in Nibelheim, and that he is nothing more than a failed experiment constructed by Hojo after the Nibelheim incident.
Sephiroth "I want to take you back to your real self."
Sephiroth "The one who gave me the Black Materia that day..."
Sephiroth "Who would have ever thought a failed experiment would prove so useful?"
Sephiroth “Hojo would die if he knew”
Cloud "Hojo!? What does he have to do with me!?"
Sephiroth "Five years ago you were ...constructed by Hojo, piece by piece, right after Nibelheim was burnt.”
Sephiroth “A puppet made up of vibrant Jenova cells, her knowledge, and the power of Mako.”
Sephiroth “An incomplete Sephiroth-clone. Not even given a number ...That is your reality." Sephiroth shows Cloud the picture taken by a man in Nibelheim before they left for Mt. Nibel, and Zack is in the picture instead of Cloud. It is at this point that Cloud begins to doubt himself and becomes confused over whether or not he is truly the Cloud who grew up in Nibelheim.
Therefore, what is meant by Cloud finding his “true self” during the Lifestream Event is finding whether he is truly Cloud of Nibelheim or whether he is one of Hojo’s failed experiments. It has nothing do to with Cloud’s personality, nor does it have anything to do with what is called the “Zack persona”.
Some people argue that Cloud becomes more personable and friendly to the others after the Lifestream Event, whereas this change in behavior actually happens even before the death of Aerith. Look at the following examples from Disk One, which is long before the Lifestream Event:
In the Corel Prison:
Barret "...wouldn't bet on it. I gotta 'pologize to Dyne before I can rest in peace. An' that's why, I gotta go alone."
Cloud "Do whatever you want... Is that what you want to hear?
Cloud “Well, I can't let you do it. Because, if you die on me, I'm gonna have nightmares.”In Cosmo Canyon:
Aerith "I'm... alone..... I'm all alone now..."
Cloud "But I'm..... we're here for you, right?"
Aerith "I know. I know, but... I am the only.... Cetra."
Cloud "Does that mean we can't help?" In Rocket Town:
Cid "^%$#! Shera. What are you, blind!? We got guests!! GET SOME TEA! ^%$#!"
Shera "I... I'm sorry."
(She hurries to the stove.)
Cloud "Really, don't mind us." Cid "Shera! I'll be in the backyard tunin' up Tiny Bronco! An' make sure to serve them some tea! All right!?"
(He leaves out back.)
Aerith "Sheesh...!! What bad manners!"
Cloud "Sorry. It's our fault." Therefore, the “true self” which Cloud finds in the Lifestream Event refers only to establishing that he is actually Cloud of Nibelheim, that he was never a member of SOLDIER, and his true role in the events of Nibelheim five years ago. It has nothing to do with a change in his personality or with losing the “Zack persona”.
In the first stage of the Lifestream Event, Tifa reveals to Cloud that he wasn’t the member of SOLDIER who accompanied Sephiroth to Nibelheim five years ago. Tifa approaches the Cloud double sitting at the gates of Nibelheim. As they enter the gates, Tifa asks Cloud to tell her again what happened. As Cloud talks about entering Nibelheim with Sephiroth, Tifa reveals the truth to him:
Tifa "Five years ago... two men from SOLDIER came..."
Tifa "Sephiroth and... a young and vibrant soldier."
Tifa "Can you tell me again what happened?"
(Cloud blinks out of existence, then reappears, as the movie of his memories plays out.)
……
(She turns to watch the Cloud of five years ago enter with two other soldiers.)
Tifa "No, Cloud."
Tifa "I've been hiding it for some time, afraid that if I told you... something terrible might happen.”
Tifa “But, I'm not going to hide anything anymore."
(With a white flash, Sephiroth, the guards, and the past Cloud disappear.)
Tifa "You weren't here. Cloud did not come to Nibelheim five years ago." The vision of Nibelheim vanishes as Cloud comes to the realization that he wasn’t actually the member of SOLDIER who came with Sephiroth five years ago. Along with this realization, Cloud begins to doubt his other childhood memories as well:
(Tifa speaks to another replica of Cloud seated by the well in Nibelheim, who speaks to her.)
"That starry night at the well... And our promise that night... What if the memory was just a lie?" This leads to the second stage of the event, where Tifa asks Cloud to remember the Promise again. As he recalls the night they met at the well, Tifa verifies that she remembers it the same way. However, this isn’t enough to convince Cloud that he truly grew up in Nibelheim.
Tifa realizes that it doesn’t convince him because Cloud has to recall something independently of her help. If Cloud can recall something from childhood on his own, and she is able to verify that it actually happened, then it will prove that he really spent his childhood in Nibelheim:
Tifa "I say something and you don't remember it...”
Tifa “But you say something, and I remember it, too... Then we'll know that's our memory..."
Tifa "Talk to me. About anything, some important memory to you..." Notice that Tifa has specifically asked him to recall something independently of her help. Therefore, what he recalls is not a “rediscovery” of anything for Cloud. This is something from Cloud’s own memory, something he has never forgotten, and it involves his past feelings for her:
Tifa "Talk to me. About anything, some important memory to you..."
Tifa "Now that you mention it, why did you want to join SOLDIER in the first place? I always thought it was a sudden decision you made..."
(Suddenly, the transparent Cloud high above speaks. Tifa doesn't hear.)
"...I was devastated. ...I wanted to be noticed."
(The Cloud of the well echoes these same words.)
"...I was devastated. ...I wanted to be noticed."
(The next words come only from the Cloud of the well.)
"I thought if I got stronger I could get someone to notice..."
Tifa "Someone has to notice you...? ...who?"
(The Cloud above speaks again.)
"Who...? ...You know who! ...You, that's who."
(The Cloud of the well speaks differently.) "You..."
Tifa "...Me? Why!?"
Young Cloud "Tifa... did you forget... about those days?"
Tifa "Look... I..."
Tifa "I'm sorry... But what are you talking about?" Cloud remembers his past feelings for Tifa independently of her help. How can this be a “rediscovery of his past feelings for Tifa” when he remembers them independently of her help? This passage demonstrates that Cloud has actually never forgotten his past feelings for Tifa. It is not a “rediscovery of Cloud’s feelings”, since he has never forgotten those feelings in the first place. As the player continues, however, it is revealed that the memory of his past feelings for her are coupled with shame, embarrassment, guilt, remorse, and rejection.
It should also be noted that this same passage is a statement of Cloud’s *past* feelings for Tifa rather than of his *current* feelings for her, and it is important to distinguish between the two. Until there is evidence of Cloud’s current feelings for Tifa, one can not jump to the conclusion that he still feels the same way. Cloud was 14 when he left Nibelheim, and he’s now 21 years old, which means that seven years have passed. A great deal can happen in seven years, including getting over a crush.
This leads to the third stage of the Lifestream Event, where Tifa asks Cloud to tell her about an important memory that has to do with her. If Cloud is able to recall something from his own memory that she can verify, then it will indicate that he was actually born in Nibelheim rather than being a failed experiment of Hojo’s. The memory that Cloud recalls is quite detailed, and it reveals several painful memories involving his childhood with Tifa.
This important memory starts when Cloud recalls a memory of rejection by Tifa’s friends, rather than of his past feelings for her. Cloud remembers thinking that her group of friends "were all childish, laughing at every little stupid thing." Even though Cloud realizes that this wasn’t fair as an adult, it was the way he actually felt as a child while growing up with Tifa. Cloud had always wanted to play with her friends, but he was never allowed into the group. Tifa confirms that this was true, and in the process we learn that Cloud and Tifa hardly knew one another as children.
Tifa "My room?"
Young Cloud "It was my first time there."
Tifa "Was... it?"
Young Cloud "I only used to look up at it from outside."
Tifa "Was that the first day you came into my room?"
Tifa "...that's right. We lived next to each other. But I really didn't know you that well." Tifa "I've known you since we were children and I always thought we were close..."
Tifa "Now that you mention it... I don't recall you ever being in my room..."
Young Cloud "Tifa always used to be with this three-some."
Tifa "...That's right."
(Young Cloud turns away.)
"You were all childish, laughing at every little stupid thing."
Tifa "But we were children, back then."
Young Cloud "...I know. I'm the one that was stupid. I really wanted to play with everyone, but I was never allowed into the group."
Young Cloud "Then later... I began to think I was different...”
Young Cloud “That I was different from those immature kids."
Young Cloud "That then... maybe..."
(A double of the adult Cloud speaks.)
"Just maybe, they would invite me in."
"I thought that might happen, so I hung around..."
(The double speaks again.)
"That night I called Tifa out to the well... I thought to myself Tifa would never come, that she hated me."
Tifa "Yeah... it was so sudden. I was... a bit surprised."
(She turns to face Young Cloud.)
Tifa "But... It's true that we weren't THAT close, but..." This passage reveals several important things. In the first place, it shows that Cloud has painful memories of his childhood relationship with Tifa. This is a memory of rejection and shame involving Tifa and her friends. The loneliness and rejection that Cloud felt as a child, due to being excluded from Tifa’s group of friends, is quite obvious.
The second thing this passage conclusively reveals is that Cloud and Tifa were not close friends as children, and that Cloud only had a crush on her from afar. Cloud only used to look up at Tifa’s window from outside, and her group of friends wouldn’t allow Cloud to play with them. Cloud even goes on to say that when he invited Tifa to the well, he thought that she hated him, which further indicates how estranged they were. Cloud wouldn’t be feeling that Tifa hated him if they were close to one another. Therefore, Cloud’s crush on Tifa was never based on an actual relationship with her. It was merely a childhood crush from afar.
The second part of Cloud’s important memory having to do with Tifa is another memory of shame, embarrassment, remorse, fear, and guilt… an incident causing Cloud to be devastated because of Tifa.
On the day that Tifa’s mother died, she headed into the mountains, thinking that her mother’s spirit may have passed through there. On the way, a bridge collapsed and Tifa fell to the ground with Cloud trailing a few feet behind. When they are found, a man yells at Cloud and blames him for the incident. The man tells Cloud that Tifa may even die from the fall, which must have caused Cloud incredible guilt.
(Tifa's father and another man come running onscreen, shocked.)
(Tifa's father carries her away, and the other man screams at young Cloud.)
"Cloud! Why'd you bring Tifa to a place like this!"
"What the hell's the matter with you!?"
"What if she dies!?" Tifa was in a coma for seven days afterwards, and they didn’t know if she would make it. Think of the effect this would have on a child, when he has been told that the incident was his fault and that he is to blame for her possible death. This is the important memory that Cloud recalls for Tifa, not a memory of his past crush on her. Instead, it is a memory of guilt, shame, remorse, and fear surrounding his childhood with Tifa. Not only was Cloud rejected by Tifa and her friends, he felt blamed for the incident at the bridge. After he tells Tifa of the incident at the bridge, we learn more of his reaction to it:
(The dark Cloud speaks again.)
"Tifa was in a coma for seven days. We all thought she wouldn't make it. If only I could've saved her.. I was so angry...”
“Angry at myself for my weakness. Ever since then, I felt Tifa blamed me... I got out of control... I'd get into fights not even caring who it was."
"That was the first time I heard about Sephiroth. If I got strong like Sephiroth, then everyone might..."
"If I could just get stronger... Then even Tifa would have to notice me..." Notice that Cloud says, “If I got strong like Sephiroth, then *EVERYONE* might… If I could just get stronger… Then *EVEN* Tifa would have to notice me.” It was not only for Tifa that Cloud wanted to get stronger, but so that everyone, such as the group of friends who rejected him, would notice him. Cloud wanted to be accepted, and he didn’t want to be blamed. This is why Cloud decided to try and join SOLDIER and become like Sephiroth.
This same passage is another indication that Cloud never incorporated the “Zack persona”. Remember Cloud’s cold, impersonal behavior in Midgar? At one point in the Seventh Heaven, Cloud even almost picks a fight with Barret over his pay by standing up tall to get in Barret’s face. This is exactly how Cloud describes his behavior as a child after the bridge incident: “I got out of control… I’d get into fights not even caring who it was.” Tifa also mentions in the Seventh Heaven that Cloud used to get into fights at the drop of a hat. So Cloud was acting very much like himself in Midgar rather than like Zack.
The fourth stage of the Lifestream event is where Cloud remembers his true role in the Nibelheim incident five years earlier, along with carrying Tifa to the side in the reactor, which is discussed on this website in Part 4: Whose Hero Is Cloud? His true role during the Nibelheim incident is the only thing Cloud is ever shown to have confused in his memories, along with the fact that he was never in SOLDIER. Look at what Cloud says to everyone aboard the Highwind in the scene after the Lifestream Event:
Cloud "I never was in SOLDIER.”
Cloud “I made up the stories about what happened to me five years ago, about being in SOLDIER.”
Cloud “I left my village looking for glory, but never made it in to SOLDIER...”
Cloud “I was so ashamed of being so weak; then I heard this story from my friend Zack...”
Cloud “And I created an illusion of myself made up of what I had seen in my life....”
Cloud “And I continued to play the charade as if it were true."Cloud specifically says that he “made up the stories” about what happened five years ago and about being in SOLDIER, which also argues the idea of Cloud incorporating a personality other than his own. Cloud says that he willfully created an illusion of himself made up of what he had seen in his life because he was ashamed of being so weak. This indicates that his confused memories about the Nibelheim incident were nothing imposed upon him. Rather, it was a willful decision on Cloud’s part to live this illusion.
Cloud was a young man ashamed of his weakness, rejected by the group of friends he wanted to play with, ignored by the girl he had a crush on, and blamed for the incident where Tifa fell from the bridge. In addition to all this, Cloud fails to make it as a SOLDIER after leaving his village to look for glory. Then Cloud meets someone whom he admires and looks up to, a first class SOLDIER by the name of Zack. Cloud starts to imitate Zack in the same way that many young people try to imitate their heroes. Cloud’s memories became distorted about the Nibelheim event for that reason, not because he incorporated the personality of Zack.
This also means there was no effect on Cloud’s memories of growing up in the same village as Tifa, or on his memories of a past crush on her, which is substantiated by the fact that he gives a detailed recollection of the incident when Tifa fell of the bridge. Cloud accurately recalls his childhood memories involving Tifa, which are memories of rejection, shame, embarrassment, remorse and guilt, rather than fond memories of a caring childhood relationship.
The Lifestream Event is not a “rediscovery of Cloud’s past feelings for Tifa”. The only things that Cloud rediscovers in the Lifestream Event is that he was never a member of SOLDIER and what actually happened in Nibelheim five years ago. The remainder of this event is Cloud’s recollection of the painful memories surrounding his childhood relationship with Tifa.